Self- harm

Facing your problems and other things can be really hard, there are situations when you are patient and you are getting rid of them slowly, but there is time when you get enough of them and you choose another option.

That option is self-harm. I know a friend that cuts himself and he says " It's a way that I deal with life. "

No, I don't think it's a way how you deal with life... You are in pain, and cutting yourself brings pain to  you more. It makes you feel alone, feel like you deserve bad things, ... deserve to die.

I had situations like this, I mean I have never cut myself  and I never will, but when I get angry or sad for some reason I get the urge to punch something even myself. At that moment I get so much energy that I have to use on something or someone.

Self-harm is a way that you want to show your pain that is inside on the outside.

Also, I know that a lot of people find others who cut theirselves stupid and make fun of it.

But, I think they have to help someone because they need it, but they can't  because they are embarassed. They are embarassed because they care what will others think...

I am one of those people in some situations, even if I am writing this it doesn't mean that I am perfect and good every day. I have a bad side too. I am the one who always cares what will others think and how will they react. I can't stand for myself and I can't stand for others.It's ok because at the same time we all need help...

You find it hard to socialize?

I am always super shy when it comes to talking and meeting new people. I always think about what will they think about me then they see me, when I start talking and the list goes on... I know that I have written that we shouldn't care what others think, but it's really hard not to do that and that fact is so annoying.

It is the opposite when I am with people I know, because when I am with them  I am relaxed...

But, a couple of days ago I' ve met a girl at school.

We didn't go to same class, but I have always wanted to get to know her better. So, it happened, first couple of days when we started talking I paid attention on what was I saying, but eventually I stopped thinking about that...

Talking to my friend made me realise that this whole thing can only break us. I think that no one doesn't want to spend their life with 20 cats...alone. Be social! 

Theatre!

Joining theatre or how you like to say it, joining acting classes was a new thing for me to try out.
I joined I think last year, and it's going great so far! My friend got me into it, and at first I was scared  how other people are going to accept me and I was always extremely shy.
-But, of course there was a reason behind all that, and I don't know if I have already wrote about this, but now I am going into details.
So three years ago I had a friend who was playing handball, so I decided  I would join her and because I was little bit clumsy I wasn't that good.
Suddenly there was a match we had to play and I wanted to play but one girl stopped me and said that I can't because I wasn't wearing right clothes and that's when I ran away and quit playing handball.
After that, I was interested in dancing, so I joined. The girls there knew how to dance well because they joined when they were like 6... Honestly, I wasn't a good dancer, I was little chubby back then, but I don't think that was the reason the girls would think bad of me and say bad things to me.
I would understand that kind of behaviour if they were like 10, but they were older than me.
Also, I remember that I would cry not wanting to go to dance, my mum and sister would always tell me that I shouldn't give up because of few stupid girls, but I was little and didn't understant  what that meant so I gave up, again...
-But now, when I am going to theatre I feel happy. People there understand you, if your shy because that's normal and we all have some kind of connection ,  we are doing what we love and want to.I love them, even if I don't know them that well, because they are always there to help and we are all learning from each other and fighting for our dreams! 

High school

I am a little bit late with this theme, but if I wanted to write about it then I had to see how is it like in high school.
So, I am a freshman (first year)  and I don't think it is much different than how people show it in movies.Of course, pople are gonna classify you as the popular one or nerdy one.
Where I live, if you care about your grades and you are a good student then you are a nerd. And being nerd is ok because you are in school and grades and your future is something you want to care about.
One actress said that "If you were popular in high school, then I don't want to be your friend".That explains everything. You are not popular  without a reason, there has to be something you did that caught attention of other people.
Also, I know that others think that in high school it is the best to be popular and to have a lot of people surrounding  you, but it can only cause  a lot of problems, you won't have that much of privacy and people will think that your life is perfect, you won't have nobody to talk about your problems because they won't understand them.
"Be nice to nerds. Chances are you will be working for one.-Bill Gates. You can read this quote and it will automatically  change your way of thinking. Popularity won't give you straight A's but being positive and persistent will.
Back to me, and how I spend my time in high school, I try to be social the best I can, because I am shy and that is the worst thing ever.
But don't estimate people by their looks just try to get to know them all better and try to survive your next three years of high school! (or how many you have them) :) Good luck!

Too many people spend money they haven't earned, to buy things they don't want, to impress people they don't like.-Will Smith

This quote speaks for itself, and  there's not much to write about it.
Some people are often shy and embarrassed  to show or tell somebody that they are not in the condition to buy  a lot of new clothes, mobiles and that kind of stuff , I think it's because they are afraid that others will be sorry for them and ignore them.
That's why they try to hide it the best way they could, and they buy things that they can hardly afford . I don't blame them for that, the only thing they are trying to do is to fit in a group of people that can afford theirselves all those things.
But at the same time, trying to impress someone is bad, because at that time you are wrong, because you are getting people to be friends with you only because of your material things.
Also high social status people ( some of them) - it's like they show their power by buying lots of things they need and don't and often don't understand life of people with bad social status.
If you are in good socially condition it doesn't mean that you can't be frriends with someone who's not, because we are all humans after all.

This video is so inspiring and I think it fits in this blog post! 

Never beg for love.Love is freely given by those who deserve to love you and who deserve to receive love from you.

A lot of people want friends that will love them the way they are, and I know because I am like that, that we want to feel free when we are with someone and don't want to be  judged.

I made mistakes when I "ran" for some people. Like, I wanted them to accept me and to be friends with me.To accomplish that whenever I would hang out with them I would change my ways of thinking, seeing the world and things and I would lose myself.

Today, there are a lot of people like this, and they feel lonely and depressed.

Try not to be one of them! Because I know that nobody wants  enemies, but they are always gonna be there no matter what. Don't be afraid of being alone, be afraid of trying to change who you are and who you want to be!

If you give up before your goal has been reached, you are a "quitter",A quitter never wins and a winner never quits!

You can be always wrong.You can think that you have the most amazing friends who love you and wish the best for you, but it can all be a lie.(not everybody)
Everyone can act all good around you, but you don't know what is on their mind and what their goals are...
The main problem in friendship is jealousy.For example, you have something that your friend doesn't and what he/she does is tell you bad things about it.
I mean that's how I notice when someone is jealous.That's when you lose your self-confidence and when you start caring about what others think.
Like, you have a dream job, and someone tells you "No, I don't think that job is for you, you can't do it" and you believe him/her that is when your goal is not reached and your dream is crushed.
-Be careful, nothing is what it looks like!
Do what makes you happy. Sometimes it is better to be alone other than being with people who wish you the worse and then in the future you will not regret what you have done!

If you can't be thankful for what you have, be thankful for what you have escaped

We all have been lost in thoughts, thinking about life and things, people that are surrounding us and wishes.Sometimes you think as yourself as a person who doesn't have a lot, and you need more.
For example, women. when we want to go out and we think that we don't have nothing to wear and we get all stressed out and think that we need to get more clothes, but we have a lot more than we know we do and that is something that makes us blind in some kind of way.
When you have too much, then you need more, when you don't you just think about one thing that will make your life better.
Do you think of the people that are ill, and their family/friends who are probably waiting in hospital, just one thing is in their mind and that's the question is everything going to be fine with their family member or friend?
That is the time when you realize that money is nothing compared to health!
Even when you get little sick you just  wish it to go away...

Don't depend too much on anyone in this world, because even your shadow leaves you when you are in darkness

Think of those times when you relied  on someone but they let you down, and the time when you asked yourself why? What happened?When you need someone, why wasn't  anyone beside you, talking to you about what happened... like when you probably  did when someone needed help.
I ask myself that a lot, but I know that there isn't always going to be someone who is going to be there for us, that is why it is always good to be strong and to start to learn how to do things alone.
Even if you haven't experienced this, take my advice, because you will never know in what situation you will be someday and I don't want you to regret your deed.

Everybody is a genius,but if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree,it will live it's whole life believing that it's stupid

We have talked to a lot of people, and some of them tell us good things, but some of them bad.
Everyone has a right to express their thoughts and I know that most of the people love when others are open to them and tell them everything that is on their mind but there is a time when we have to kind of "lie", but keep something to ourselves.
There are people that whatever you say, if it is a joke or something believe in it, they take everything to their heart, and start to question their possibilities. 
For example, wouldn't you feel the same if someone told you that you couldn't so something that you have been working on so hard, or even if you have a dream job that you want to do and someone tells you "No, I don't think that is for you", would you listen to him/her?!
Of course you would, you would just pretend that you don't care or listen to what others say.
The right thing to do is to pretend, not to care because you don't know what you can do if you don't try.It can be really hard, but that is life-you have to experience it first to know if it was a right or bad choice.

The world is a dangerous place to live.not because of the people who are evil,but because of the people who don't do anything about it

Nobody cared how much you have, are you rich or poor, I can say that life was better in the past, everything has changed now.
Why did people started to care about looks and material  things?I thought it was better to be with someone, who has a big heart and personality...That's why people are more depressed now..
Also human behaviour  changed a lot. Nothing is like before, when we didn't care who is our friend, we just wanted others to surround us.But now, we care what others think about us , also we pick who is going to be our friend, and then there is that popularity  thing..
People are starting to divide, some of them think that you can't be with someone who is not that known, or he/she is poor and you are rich so that doesn't go together.You can be popular and rich, but maybe you don't ave something that is the most important thing  and that is happiness and true friends.
Helping begins to decrease.Starting to care just about  ourselves can lead us to ruin, this also has a connection  with my last post.When we see that someone has a problem or something it is always nice to help.
Also, if we see someone fighting, then we have to try to stop that , we have to be the ones to spread love and peace, and to teach others how to be a better individual.
That is something that would lead us to the top and something we can try to do to be satisfied with ourselves.

Be nice to people on your way up, because you will meet them on your way down

This is what I really want to do now, I can say what I have been doing lately and this is something what I recommend everyone to do.

Nobody know what is going to happen tomorrow, whether are things gonna go right or wrong, which person is going to get in your life, so we don't want to make mistakes.

That's why being good to others is always right choice to make.

-Be nice to people on your way up-this part represents our happy days, when we usually care about ourselves that's why the second part is added, happiness  sometimes takes us down, because of it we think that we don't need some other people, and when we get mad or sad about something, or someone just stopped being friends with us, we realize that we needed those people, now to make us company, to cheer us...

So,the quote speaks for itself, it is always the best to be friends with everyone, because you will never know when will you need help and why!

Feeling left out

Everyone has felt left out once, and it happened to me several times.In that period you feel betrayed, neglected, rejected and you lose faith in yourself.
I know why I was ignored by other people...and this story is connected with my post about "Friends" and "Loneliness".
So, two days ago I have met a girl and I thought that it would be a good opportunity to make friends, and I was being myself  in front of her.But it established that she didn't like me the way I really am.And she was brave to tell me that, and to tell me that I make a lot  mistakes although she just had met me...That made me think, do I really need to change?Do I need to act like another person? Also, am I doing something that keeps away others? Million questions but there's no answer...
People get ignored all the time.I don't care if you are black or white, or you are poor or rich, if you are nice to me then I will be nice to you.I think that this is what people need to do, only then we will build peace between people.
:-)

Sometimes the person that tries to keep everyone happy, is the most loneliest person

It can be our friends, or just one person that we want to see smile everyday.It doesn't mean that we want to make him/her laugh,it's just that we want to do something that he/she wants us to do.

Sometimes I just do that too,I don't know  if I want to make them happy or want them to see me as a good person.

But, I can also do the opposite.I often get bored of just helping others when I need help.When others notice that something is wrong with me they ask me why, when I tell them the problem they try to comfort me with stupid things.It just feels like they are happy with the problem that I have and want me to see it.

Also, I realised that we need to be careful with who are we helping, because there are some people that don't know how to say "thank you" and they can use you too.

People are not the same,so there are some that love to tease and make you mad a little bit.I get mad easily and that's what I hate about myself,whenever  someone tells me something bad I get kind of sad and just ask myself is that true what he/she said to me?

That's not right and I can't escape from it,but I wish I can..I describe myself as a girl who is weak,I mean I cry about little things and also at some moments I can't stand for myself.When you look at others and see that they just ignore "irrelevant" people, you just wish you were more like them and at some point  you just want to become bad.But that's impossible and not alright because that's not who you want to be.

We can't change bad people by doing what they do,I think that we can just talk to them if it doesn't work then try to ignore them.And if we are not satisfied with ourselves or we think we are irrelevant at some way we just need to think that there is someone who likes our behaviour and who wants to be like us.

Meaning of life

I have been looking at my blog  and realised  that I mostly write about negative than  positive things.
Of course, when you are sad or angry you want someone to advise you and just talk about good things in life.
So,I though why just not write this post about good things that are going on.
As I said in one of my posts,we need to be thankful for all that we have.Life is short so small problems shouldn't bother us,we all need to relax and let ourselves free.
There is always someone who will listen to us, a friend,member of the family, even a stranger.
Challenges and problems are what make life interesting.
When we don't feel alright we just want problems to go away and we want a perfect life, although we know that,that kind of life doesn't exist.
Think about how it will be without challenges, we probably wouldn't know the meaning of the life,also we wouldn't know how strong are we to deal with them.
Overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.Just remember,you are not alone in any situation!

Be yourself!

Be yourself.Everyone else is taken.

I found this quote today, and it is really inspiring,I found myself in it too.

I think that we all change ourselves sometimes,when we notice that someone doesn't like out attitude,we just want to find a solution to make them like us.

But of course that is bad,because we don't live to act the new us, and everyone needs love and someone they can thrust to and they can care about.

So that means finding someone that we can talk about everything with, and just not care if we are going to say something wrong, I think it is all about being relaxed.

Today,people don't go out together that much ,they communicate by phones and other social networks  more, and that includes me too.

I hate that fact,and I think that sometimes we all want to throw our phones away, because we just want to see who is really there for us.

So,the point of this post is just to remind some people that not everybody is going to like you, but also not to change yourself only because to make someone like you!

Loneliness and self-confidence

Lately,there was a lot of going on my mind...
Lonely,yeah that's how I would describe it.I don't know how that feeling comes,it's kind of strange,but I just felt like nobody understands me...
Also,I hate the fact that I don't have self-confidence..Like if I talk to somebody or I am in school and I have an idea or something I won't tell it,I would just keep it in myself,because I am afraid,afraid that people will judge me or think that I am stupid.
I don't know,but I think that all people with this kind of problem need someone  who will teach them how to build confidence.
Back to the lonely-feeling.I feel guilty,because I have family beside me,and the feeling can be compared like I was ungrateful to have them .That's it!I have too much and I ask for more,that can not be right!
So, every time we have to be thankful for everything that we have because there is always someone that doesn't have anything.
-Please comment and just feel free to tell me that you think about this.And also if you have a problem it will be a pleasure to me to help you! :-)

Social life

The feeling was crazy,only because I refused to do what she was doing made me some kind of coward.

She had a boyfriend,despite she was very young,she smoked,drink  and she was popular girl in my school, and yeah that's what she expected that I would do too.

I had no friends then,I don't know why people supported her so much,maybe because she was in relationship with a bad boy or also maybe because they were scared that she will do something that she did to me.I had only my sister who I am really thankful for  everything she had done for me.

My sister told me that everything what was going on will stop and yeah that's what really happened.

Everyone got bored of her selfishness, and soon fear of her had stopped.

Today,she is nothing but ashamed for everything she had done.

-I shared my story with you because I know there are teenagers out there who are doing something by force,and friends like this girl in my story is not someone you can be friends with!

A real friend is someone who appreciates something  you don't want to do   and sticks  up for you when you are being put down! :-) 

How to survive bullying?

Kicking,swearing,bullying is something that we all do,well not everybody but you know what I mean...
As I said,nobody is perfect,so we all make mistakes but we also repent.
-There are people who feel stronger when they make other people feel bad and bully them..I just think that they do it because of jealousy or if you are physical different than other people,also they want other people to feel scared of them because they are too weak.If you know someone like this and he/she is making you feel bad than you just have to ignore them and just surround yourself with good people! Also if that bullying has crossed the boarder than you should ask for help,and also talk to your parents!
-I say some bad stuff to people too, if I am angry and in bad mood but I apologize to them, and that's what makes you a better person , so people remember things like that and they just become closer to you so what I am saying is all what we do and say there is always an apology and story behind that ,and if we have some problems we can just be nice to someone for a moment and then just tell them everything that bothers us and we can start to feel better :-)

Self-Esteem and Body Image

Everybody is different, people don't think the same way and they don't look the same.

That's one of the problems of teenagers and also people.

I know, also I want to be good at lots of stuff and I want to be good-looking at every moment,but I am not and I deal with it.

-Body image

People fell ugly all the time.They think that they are fat,too skinny,their hair is ugly,they are too short itc.I mean that's how I think too,but a while ago I wasn't thinking about that too much I don't know why but I didn't care how I looked or do I eat more sweets than I should I just let myself "free".I realised that nothing is what it looks like...I don't want frends to like me because I am "rich and skinny",beautiful and just care about my look I think that nobody  wants friends like that!And yeah,what I think is that we shouldn't care about our looks or anybody's,we should just keep learning how to be better person  and also show that to other people.

Also,we have someone boy/girl that we really like,but the usual  problem is that we are not their tipe or they don't like our behavior,but we shouldn't change because someone that we like doesn't like us back...we are gonna find another girl/boy to fall in love with..That's the biggest problem and also for all this that I wrote I just wanted to say that YOU have to believe in yourself,feel like you're the best and that nothing can stop you that's how I do it and just DON'T ever listen what other people say! 

P.S:I am going to write about other teenager problem, and please comment and tell me if you have a problem I will help you,Thanks  :-)

Friends

I don't know if it's just me but I kind of have problem with finding friends.

No,don't think that I don't have someone to go out with and have fun, I don't have someone that I can tell everything to, especially problems and secrets...

I had one friend, well then I taught that she will be my friend no matter what,when I was with her I would just feel that nothing could end our friendship,but I was wrong...Then also you realise how life can be really hard, and you know that quote :Beautiful things never last...Before I taught no that doesn't mean nothing but when you're growing up you learn more things, so that's something good in life!I am not just saying that there are no true friends, there are but you have to find them! I don't know, after that I was feeling lonely all the time, then I started blogging and feeling better, I mean it's just weird to share something like this with a stranger but in a good way! :-) 

The whole point of this is that you really have to think with  who are you friends with....And also if you have a new friend DON'T tell her secrets at the beginning just wait sometime and know her/him better...

How to choose a career?!

So, for my third post I wanted to write about career..Choosing a career is not an easy job.We all have our dreams and we all have talents so that's something we want to do in life.I meant that, for example I really want to be an actress and I want  to do that in my life,but I live in a country where acting is not developed.That is a problem because that is something that distracts me from acting.But then I realised why not just fight for my dreams.I was thinking also on making videos on YouTube,I know there are lots of youtubers today..,but why not just try and film something,maybe people will like it.
People are scared of things like this...I was thinking about that lately, people have a lots of interesting stuff to share with other people but they are scared of "haters"..In life there won't be a lot of people who will like something that you do,but Hey remember! If you don't have haters,then you are doing something wrong in your life!Comment  and let me know what you want to be in life and also,ask me some tips if you have a problem that includes  this title :-)

First Post

This is my first post on My life....