Self- harm

Facing your problems and other things can be really hard, there are situations when you are patient and you are getting rid of them slowly, but there is time when you get enough of them and you choose another option.

That option is self-harm. I know a friend that cuts himself and he says " It's a way that I deal with life. "

No, I don't think it's a way how you deal with life... You are in pain, and cutting yourself brings pain to  you more. It makes you feel alone, feel like you deserve bad things, ... deserve to die.

I had situations like this, I mean I have never cut myself  and I never will, but when I get angry or sad for some reason I get the urge to punch something even myself. At that moment I get so much energy that I have to use on something or someone.

Self-harm is a way that you want to show your pain that is inside on the outside.

Also, I know that a lot of people find others who cut theirselves stupid and make fun of it.

But, I think they have to help someone because they need it, but they can't  because they are embarassed. They are embarassed because they care what will others think...

I am one of those people in some situations, even if I am writing this it doesn't mean that I am perfect and good every day. I have a bad side too. I am the one who always cares what will others think and how will they react. I can't stand for myself and I can't stand for others.It's ok because at the same time we all need help...

You find it hard to socialize?

I am always super shy when it comes to talking and meeting new people. I always think about what will they think about me then they see me, when I start talking and the list goes on... I know that I have written that we shouldn't care what others think, but it's really hard not to do that and that fact is so annoying.

It is the opposite when I am with people I know, because when I am with them  I am relaxed...

But, a couple of days ago I' ve met a girl at school.

We didn't go to same class, but I have always wanted to get to know her better. So, it happened, first couple of days when we started talking I paid attention on what was I saying, but eventually I stopped thinking about that...

Talking to my friend made me realise that this whole thing can only break us. I think that no one doesn't want to spend their life with 20 cats...alone. Be social! 

Theatre!

Joining theatre or how you like to say it, joining acting classes was a new thing for me to try out.
I joined I think last year, and it's going great so far! My friend got me into it, and at first I was scared  how other people are going to accept me and I was always extremely shy.
-But, of course there was a reason behind all that, and I don't know if I have already wrote about this, but now I am going into details.
So three years ago I had a friend who was playing handball, so I decided  I would join her and because I was little bit clumsy I wasn't that good.
Suddenly there was a match we had to play and I wanted to play but one girl stopped me and said that I can't because I wasn't wearing right clothes and that's when I ran away and quit playing handball.
After that, I was interested in dancing, so I joined. The girls there knew how to dance well because they joined when they were like 6... Honestly, I wasn't a good dancer, I was little chubby back then, but I don't think that was the reason the girls would think bad of me and say bad things to me.
I would understand that kind of behaviour if they were like 10, but they were older than me.
Also, I remember that I would cry not wanting to go to dance, my mum and sister would always tell me that I shouldn't give up because of few stupid girls, but I was little and didn't understant  what that meant so I gave up, again...
-But now, when I am going to theatre I feel happy. People there understand you, if your shy because that's normal and we all have some kind of connection ,  we are doing what we love and want to.I love them, even if I don't know them that well, because they are always there to help and we are all learning from each other and fighting for our dreams! 

High school

I am a little bit late with this theme, but if I wanted to write about it then I had to see how is it like in high school.
So, I am a freshman (first year)  and I don't think it is much different than how people show it in movies.Of course, pople are gonna classify you as the popular one or nerdy one.
Where I live, if you care about your grades and you are a good student then you are a nerd. And being nerd is ok because you are in school and grades and your future is something you want to care about.
One actress said that "If you were popular in high school, then I don't want to be your friend".That explains everything. You are not popular  without a reason, there has to be something you did that caught attention of other people.
Also, I know that others think that in high school it is the best to be popular and to have a lot of people surrounding  you, but it can only cause  a lot of problems, you won't have that much of privacy and people will think that your life is perfect, you won't have nobody to talk about your problems because they won't understand them.
"Be nice to nerds. Chances are you will be working for one.-Bill Gates. You can read this quote and it will automatically  change your way of thinking. Popularity won't give you straight A's but being positive and persistent will.
Back to me, and how I spend my time in high school, I try to be social the best I can, because I am shy and that is the worst thing ever.
But don't estimate people by their looks just try to get to know them all better and try to survive your next three years of high school! (or how many you have them) :) Good luck!

Too many people spend money they haven't earned, to buy things they don't want, to impress people they don't like.-Will Smith

This quote speaks for itself, and  there's not much to write about it.
Some people are often shy and embarrassed  to show or tell somebody that they are not in the condition to buy  a lot of new clothes, mobiles and that kind of stuff , I think it's because they are afraid that others will be sorry for them and ignore them.
That's why they try to hide it the best way they could, and they buy things that they can hardly afford . I don't blame them for that, the only thing they are trying to do is to fit in a group of people that can afford theirselves all those things.
But at the same time, trying to impress someone is bad, because at that time you are wrong, because you are getting people to be friends with you only because of your material things.
Also high social status people ( some of them) - it's like they show their power by buying lots of things they need and don't and often don't understand life of people with bad social status.
If you are in good socially condition it doesn't mean that you can't be frriends with someone who's not, because we are all humans after all.

This video is so inspiring and I think it fits in this blog post! 

Never beg for love.Love is freely given by those who deserve to love you and who deserve to receive love from you.

A lot of people want friends that will love them the way they are, and I know because I am like that, that we want to feel free when we are with someone and don't want to be  judged.

I made mistakes when I "ran" for some people. Like, I wanted them to accept me and to be friends with me.To accomplish that whenever I would hang out with them I would change my ways of thinking, seeing the world and things and I would lose myself.

Today, there are a lot of people like this, and they feel lonely and depressed.

Try not to be one of them! Because I know that nobody wants  enemies, but they are always gonna be there no matter what. Don't be afraid of being alone, be afraid of trying to change who you are and who you want to be!

If you give up before your goal has been reached, you are a "quitter",A quitter never wins and a winner never quits!

You can be always wrong.You can think that you have the most amazing friends who love you and wish the best for you, but it can all be a lie.(not everybody)
Everyone can act all good around you, but you don't know what is on their mind and what their goals are...
The main problem in friendship is jealousy.For example, you have something that your friend doesn't and what he/she does is tell you bad things about it.
I mean that's how I notice when someone is jealous.That's when you lose your self-confidence and when you start caring about what others think.
Like, you have a dream job, and someone tells you "No, I don't think that job is for you, you can't do it" and you believe him/her that is when your goal is not reached and your dream is crushed.
-Be careful, nothing is what it looks like!
Do what makes you happy. Sometimes it is better to be alone other than being with people who wish you the worse and then in the future you will not regret what you have done!